Thank you all so much for your kind words and support... Me and my bro might take some train adventures to both san diego and LA so my so cal buddies, i will let you know and maybe we can grab some food or something :)

Well i looked at kelly blue book and the car my x drove is finally worth almost what is owed on it so if anything my loss will be minimal... i also got him a motorcycle that is in my name and paid off so i plan on selling it and putting it towards my credit card bills...

thank god i have the support of my family right now... erik took the bed and my gma bought me a brand new one today :) she is also gonna help me try to find a way to consolidate my debt...

i wish i didn't love this jerk so much but i wonder if i truly loved him or just loved his company... i am still really hurt and depressed but i think i can make it to work tomorrow my bro and sis have been keeping me company all day...

i love u all thank you for making me happy at this awful time in my life <3

So glad you're piecing everything back together. You're a strong women  :)>>>

Hug.

Maybe all this cant make way for a stronger self reliant Amy my love?

Not sure if you know but I separated from my partner of seven years.
Looking back, I would thank her but I dont see any reason to reach out to her.
Now, while we dont talk, I wish her the best in her life. And dont harbor ill feelings.

L2A wins this thread! ; )

that WAS a good line, huh?!

Amy, get a facebook! We VWers have so much fun on there. Great way to meet new people too!

damn it L2A... you have convinced me! i will break down and get one... it is on my new to do list... stuff to do for me that will make me a happier and better person...

thank you all again... i look forward to reading this everyday... you  guys don't know how much better you make me feel :) <3

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Oh lady!!! :( :( :( I am sooooo soooo soooo sorry this happened! (also, sorry I am late on the hugs and kisses and the making you feel better....I just saw this post today). We have all been through these and damn, they are shit-tastic! No two bones about it :( Please know that so many people are sending you love and good energy and happiness <3 <3 <3

and if you need to laugh, for even a minute:

www.icanhascheeseburger.com

I could be holding a knife to my wrist and those damn lol cats would get me to laugh my ass off ;p

one day at a time, one hour at a time, hell...take it one minute at a time...it's like learning to walk again--but you absolutely can do it <3 have faith in yourself and love yourself and know that you are a whole complete person all on your own <3 <3 <3

thank you guys so much! i am starting to feel better and am ready to make positive changes in my life... the ED will be the first thing i plan on tackling... it has destroyed my existence and self for far too long... good to see u on here VR and Capture missed u both <3 i talked to my ex today and i thanked him for making me realize that i need to learn how to love myself and to be more reliant on me... enough of my happiness depending on others... this is my life!

very well said!

did you see this, amy?

http://vegweb.com/index.php?topic=33974.0

also, if you aren't taking your E3LIVE (blue green algae), get back on it. It really helps with mood swings and depression! Especially the Brain On. :)

Friended!

Ditto!