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Vegweb Confessions

This thread is dedicated to brutal honesty and things you would probably only discuss with a shrink or a close friend/family member. Please note that this is not a pity thread, just a venting thread. The point is to learn more about each other and possibly connect on new levels as a community

- I have a really awful relationship with my father. We just don't talk... I never call him and vice versa. The only conversations we ever have are about music, becuase the love of music is the only things we have in common.
- I have a hard time letting people get close to me. Whenever I get too close to someone, I subconsciously push them away. This has ruined the two relationships I've been in, and countless close friendships. I think this stems from my shoddy relationship with my father.
- I have an addictive personality. I've had some major run-ins with drugs in my lifetime. Thankfully, I don't partake in them anymore but sometimes I fear that my drinking will become a serious issue later in life.

yes and no....db is vaguely referencing (sore?)topics/discussions that occurred either pre or during the great VW civil war of '07-'08....needless to say there were several casualties; it seems, however, that a few have joined the ranks of the 'undead' and as such are only showing their lowest qualities instead of showing their worth/being a useful, productive member of the community.

you weren't even around then....you don't know what happened

Just because you can't remember me, doesn't mean I 'wasn't there'. May not have been as active back then (school, hobbies, work, etc), before being on bed rest for months on end, but I was around and participated in the boards. Glad to see I made a lasting impression!!! ;)b

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as you should!  ;)b

 

and if thats the worst thing that someone can come up with to say bad about you, I guess you are doing ok!!!!

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It slightly bothers me that nobody close to me IRL has noticed that I'm slowly killing myself, or that if they noticed, they aren't trying to help me. I don't like to be overly dramatic and draw attention to myself for problems. There are so many people in the world who are worse off than me.

I mean, I know what I'm doing. I just can't seem to help myself. I feel powerless.

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I feel powerless.

I am powerless in relation to your situation, and I hate, hate, hate it.

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It slightly bothers me that nobody close to me IRL has noticed that I'm slowly killing myself, or that if they noticed, they aren't trying to help me. I don't like to be overly dramatic and draw attention to myself for problems. There are so many people in the world who are worse off than me.

I mean, I know what I'm doing. I just can't seem to help myself. I feel powerless.

your friends on vegweb care!  please talk to us

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It slightly bothers me that nobody close to me IRL has noticed that I'm slowly killing myself, or that if they noticed, they aren't trying to help me. I don't like to be overly dramatic and draw attention to myself for problems. There are so many people in the world who are worse off than me.

I mean, I know what I'm doing. I just can't seem to help myself. I feel powerless.

your friends on vegweb care!  please talk to us

take care of yourself courth. really seriously. hugs and i wish i could help. :\

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The only people who are in chat while I'm still awake are lotus and cam.  Someday I'm going to barge into their tête-à-tête and they're both so nice that they'll talk to me even if they want to tell me to get out.

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The only people who are in chat while I'm still awake are lotus and cam.  Someday I'm going to barge into their tête-à-tête and they're both so nice that they'll talk to me even if they want to tell me to get out.

I was thinking about going in...

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susanak's already there, so they're divested of personal conversation time anyway.  I'm doing it.

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The only people who are in chat while I'm still awake are lotus and cam.  Someday I'm going to barge into their tête-à-tête and they're both so nice that they'll talk to me even if they want to tell me to get out.

hehe.  if we really wanted private chat, i suppose we could use a phone right? 

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confession part a:  although i hate body hair, i'm lazy.  i shave under my arms every day even if i don't happen to shower that day.  i shave everything else but my legs anytime i shower.  but my legs get so hairy before i finally shave them.  they take more work, like filling a bathtub and sitting (somehow that doesn't sound like more work when i type it!  haha... but i cannot seem to do it in the shower without the water rinsing my shave-stuff off) 

confession part b: i sorta have to be this smooth because i'm so ocd that if i feel body hair on myself i pluck it out with my finger nails or tweezers.  i really should shave my legs more often. i pretty much shave everything below my neck, otherwise i get plucky.  i pluck the hairs without even noticing it and i was doing it just now as i was reading the confessions page and figured it was confession worthy. 

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confession part c: i'm the same way with pimples.

confession part d: this obsession with hair and pimples may have found it's way over to brittney's body, too.  she never goes long with a stray hair or pimple!  (she also may not like this much at all)

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I can not suck things without chewing them...like candy or mints or anything edible that you actually want to suck.  I try and I just end up chomping on it.  Drives me crazy.

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RD, i think we're twins. I shave everything, everyday. I FREAK about body hair. I am about to pluck hair on my hands and toes (theres like, 2 hairs, they bother me, its so gross) I've shaved like my whole body since i was 13. If i miss a day of shaving, i freak the heck out, i cant make myself get dressed, but i hate shaving out of the shower, and i will only shower at night, so i must suffer a day. Bleh, i want laser hair removal on most of my body, or something like that. Thinking about this is making me go shower and shave now...

And, thh, i do that too, it makes me so mad but i can't help it!! i just cant!

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I can not suck things without chewing them...like candy or mints or anything edible that you actually want to suck.  I try and I just end up chomping on it.  Drives me crazy.

Hehe.  This reminds me of my bff and her thoughts on gum.  She says "I hate gum.  If I put something in my mouth, I want to swallow it."  Which of course, is followed by an inappropritate comment proving my humor never left the adolescent stage.  hehe.  :-D

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haha, sarah.  we're so related.  wait... does that make our vw marriage incest?

does that mean my vw confession needs to be:
i'm keri and i'm attracted to my twin sister because only she understands the neurotic hair plucking compulsion.

hmmm... makes me expect everyone to say in unison, "hi keri, we love you".

haha.

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I can not suck things without chewing them...like candy or mints or anything edible that you actually want to suck.  I try and I just end up chomping on it.  Drives me crazy.

Boy, the mental images that this conjures...
Sorry, I can't help it.
::) >:D :o

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What better way to pop my vw cherry than to bust into the confessions thread and spill my guts...

Which is my first confession by the way: I hate doing things like this because I don't know any of you and I feel like I'm barging into a group of old friends imposing on their conversation... at the same time I like it because I want the attention. I don't like crowds of any size or even walking through the lunch room at work because I feel that people are staring and judging. Slowly I'm learning that if people don't like what they see they can piss off because they don't matter to me.

I have an unprofessional diagnosis of Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder (OCPD) which means I have OCD, but I like it. I am an over-organized control freak that also has a procrastination problem. I'm typing this at work while there is work to be done, and if I don't get my work done, I'll feel guilty about it.

My biological father had an alcoholic girlfriend while I was growing up. I don't hate many things, but I hate her because of what she put me through... I guess I should thank her because it's her "fault" that I don't drink. I haven't talked to my father in 2 years or more and didn't invite him to my wedding.

Wow... The more I think about it, if I typed out all my confessions this post would be really long. I guess I'm more F*ed up than I thought... But if we're all F*ed up, does that make us normal?

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What better way to pop my vw cherry than to bust into the confessions thread and spill my guts...

Which is my first confession by the way: I hate doing things like this because I don't know any of you and I feel like I'm barging into a group of old friends imposing on their conversation... at the same time I like it because I want the attention. I don't like crowds of any size or even walking through the lunch room at work because I feel that people are staring and judging. Slowly I'm learning that if people don't like what they see they can piss off because they don't matter to me.

I have an unprofessional diagnosis of Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder (OCPD) which means I have OCD, but I like it. I am an over-organized control freak that also has a procrastination problem. I'm typing this at work while there is work to be done, and if I don't get my work done, I'll feel guilty about it.

My biological father had an alcoholic girlfriend while I was growing up. I don't hate many things, but I hate her because of what she put me through... I guess I should thank her because it's her "fault" that I don't drink. I haven't talked to my father in 2 years or more and didn't invite him to my wedding.

Wow... The more I think about it, if I typed out all my confessions this post would be really long. I guess I'm more F*ed up than I thought... But if we're all F*ed up, does that make us normal?

wow, my first thought to you deciding to pop your cherry here with us is, well - admittedly "cleanup on aisle 3, we have a messy one here"... >:D, so moving right along...

i still consider myself relatively new to these forums (only a couple of months in, and all) and heck - we all have to start somewhere, so i'm glad you're joining in and hope you never feel weird (or like you're barging in) for the same.

i like and admire your honesty about "wanting attention" - that's awesome - i can say the same thing about me.  the older i get, the more i'm learning i really do like, love and crave attention and the more comfortable i'm getting with going out and getting it - so, you're words are a bit inspirational to me.

actually, the more i read about your post - (OCD, procrastination, neglecting duties, guilt, etc) the more i have to wonder if - in fact - you're truly just one of my MPD's that i have temporarily forgotten about, if so - "hello me, meet the real me, we'll it's been nice talking to myself" - bwah hah hah

sorry to hear about your dad's girlfriend - you have a very mature outlook though, in that you've actually learned what "not to do" from that person.  Sometimes those are the best lessons.

In truth, no one is f*d up (dammit - you even use asterisks like me - freaky), we are all perfect in our own unique way and the more we appreciate ourselves and others for who we are instead of what we/them are not - the more we can love :)

ahhh - WELCOME TO THE ASYLUM!!!

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haha, sarah.  we're so related.  wait... does that make our vw marriage incest?

does that mean my vw confession needs to be:
i'm keri and i'm attracted to my twin sister because only she understands the neurotic hair plucking compulsion.

hmmm... makes me expect everyone to say in unison, "hi keri, we love you".

haha.

Well, maybe we can just be meant to be? We cant interrupt the rainbow baby having now can we?!? On with the wedding!

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