I was just notified I didn't factor in new late fees in the payment I made for rent... =o/ and due to that, more fees have been added.... by way of eviction notice.... new total: $250.... paypal has a three day holding period before they deposit funds into bank account.... must have all monies in cashier's check/money order into landlord by tomorrow at midnight. Manager would have notified me in advance, probably saving me $100 in additional fees, but he's on vacation This fucking blows.

I'm really nervous and stressed about tomorrow.
1. Its my math final, i still don't get everything. I feel like i'm screwed. This scares me tons. And its at 730am. Earliest scheduled final out of all of them.
2. I have my job orientation thing tomorrow, BUT he never even told me where it is. I'm afraid when i call he's going to say its at one of the schools that do tutoring thats like an hour away that i CANNOT drive to. Me and/or my car cannot make it. And i can't even figure out these job forms, my mom didn't understand them either, it looks like i have totally wrong papers, nothing makes sense. And i'm afraid i'll dress WAY to nice. Even though i'm not dressing that nice. I'm going to wear a polo, my nice jeans, and flats. I want to wear my fancy heels but i feel like its way over the top. And i'm actually super afraid that its not even going to happen, just because i don't even know where the hell i'm going yet.
3. Tomorrow is vegan christmas/dinner with my friends. I forgot about my job crap until today, and I'm going to have to RUSH home most likely after this and hurry the heck up and cook. We are supposed to eat by 6 i think, and if it is like it should be, job stuff will be over at 5. PLUS driving time home from said unkown location. And 2 of my friends like to help. I hate help when i'm trying to cook and get things ready. It makes me soo mad. I'm afraid they'll barrage me in the kitchen because i'll probably still be cooking when they get here. And my friend just said he was leaving early. Arg.
4. Tomorrow its going to be nonstop until about 11pm, I have to wake up in 5 hours. And cannot sleep due to me freaking out. Ahhhh.
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That was mainly a super huge rant. But thats part of what this is for. so oh well.
Bleh.

oh goodness... I hope everything is okay dessie.

I think all the coughing I have been doing in the last two weeks with this stupid sickness has caused me to pull a muscle.  I'm now in excruciating pain if I twist or bend the wrong way, and even the smallest cough/sneeze is agony.
I'm stoked to have my voice back, but I didn't realise this was going to be the trade-off : (

Dad just informed me his GF will be staying with us the entire time I'm down..... He wasn't even going to tell me, but he let it slip last night when he was talking to my sister about holiday plans..... Whenever it involves her and 'us' he lets everyone else know about it (ie friends, neighbors, extended family) but doesn't even THINK to talk to or even simply TELL my sister or me about it. He acts surprised at the notion we'd expect to be included on decisions affecting the THREE of us!

I am not pleased with this.

my mom wont let me visit sarah :[

actually, this is more of a reason to be pissed! ugghhhhh

Thisss =[

I'm home alone for 9 days =[
It seemed good at first. But its 5am, my mom and her husband just left an hour ago. I'm already freaking out and unable to sleep. I hate being alone. My neighborhood is scary. Anyone can see in my window due to crappy blinds. Ugh.
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Last night made me frown a few times. I went to a party with the BF and there were some people there we didn´t know. On top of this we got there late and everyone was pretty well in their cups and I cannot drink right now because I just started a new medication. There was this one complete tool there. He had a total disregard for my personal space when talking to me. He got so close to my face and body that it made me extremely uncomfortable and I could barely look him in the eye when talking to him. At first he was kind of funny because he was so drunk, but he would not leave me alone. Every time my BF, the social butterfly, went off to chat and I tried to join in on someone else´s convo this tool would drag me out of it and insist I talk to him. Plus he and some other guy practically forced alcohol on me, when I REPEATEDLY said I was not drinking that evening. I had to take a glass and pretend to drink it to get them to leave me alone. They did the same thing to a timid Asian girl who had already had enough to drink and then the tool cornered her on the smoking balcony and came on to her while locking himself out there with her and she was too passive to really get away from him until our hostess saw and rescued her.  >:( Plus at the end of the night he asked my BF if he could KISS ME! My BF of course said F--No. But the stupid tool leaned in and practically Frenched my cheek before I could react. UGH UGH UGH!

I just have no use for people like that and others can tell me just how wonderful they are when they are sober, but with his behavior I could care less. Next time I see him I will not be so passive and I will give him a piece of my mind.

Okay, end rant. I just had to get that off my chest.

Blisters. And UTIs. :(