Starting the long journey home...
I'm not sure there is much left to salvage, my life has taken many twists and turns, some for the better, most for the worse. I lived for several years as a vegan, (in fact, I used to post on these boards under another user name...this was several years ago. I haven't mentioned my old username because that person no longer really exists, I have changed so drastically since then), but some events happened in my life that left me devastated and I used those events as an excuse to follow a path of self destruction. I gave up on my life of veg'n, started eating anything and everything, quit exercising, changed careers, relationships, just about everything. Well, if my goal was self destruction, I pretty near accomplished it.
I'm not asking for sympathy. I mean, I did it to myself, I have no one to blame for my current situation but me. Anyway, I'm now severely overweight, have high blood pressure, high cholesterol... just totally messed up physically. So, I finally woke up to my situation and decided to do something about it. I was so much happier and healthier when I was living a vegan lifestyle; I want that back.
I plan to start by going vegetarian first and then working my way back to vegan as soon as I can. I am so happy to finally see the light at the end of a very long dark tunnel. I NEVER want to live life the way I have lived for the last several years again. Looking forward to relearning a lot of my cooking skills, (carns eat all kinds of lousy, nasty stuff without caring), trying new recipes and feeling great again.
I'm SO glad to be back. :)
I know you don't want sympathy, but I do feel sorry for what you've been through.
I have issues, mental and physical, and I know what it's like to go on a rampage of self destruction. It's easy to lose who you are and become somebody else.
It's so very completely fully AWESOME that you are pulling yourself out of that dark place and taking control of your life! Even though we are complete strangers, I am really happy for you.
I know the pain of self-destruction very well. Congratulations on your new road. May you find health, peace and contentment. All the best!