This is perhaps themost painful post I will ever have to make.

My health has taken a turn for the much, much worse. I don't want to go into details, but my doctors want me hospitalized. I refused. At least, I'm refusing until the 1st when my insurance kicks in and God only knows what will happen after that. Anyways, I took an emergency leave of absence from work. All I could think of was that if I could get up to Maine to visit my dogs, everything would be better. Oh how very wrong I was.

My dad has been watching my dogs since I moved to Hartford in June. I have been able to come up three times since then, once at thanksgiving and once at Christmas. And once right now. When I came up at Thanks giving, my dogs were very underweight. I told my dad that was not okay and gave him more specific instructions on how to feed them and what weight they need to be at. So, when I got to come back up here at Christmas. They were at a good weight and I felt relieved.

I came up here the day before yesterday and my dogs are bordering emaciated. They are filthy, their nails are grown out to over and inch and caked with feces. They are kept in an eight foot my eight foot space day and night, my dad lets them out once to take them for a ten minuet walk and once to feed them. I am heart broken. Guinever and D'artagnon are like wild creatures. When i let them out of the room, they scavenge for food and don't stop moving. They fight with my dads dog and they relive themselves where ever they happen to be at themoment they need to go. They don't listen to a  word I say. I have been feeding them multiple times a day, Idont want to do too much at once and make them sick. I cannot give them a  bath because my dad does not have any hot water. I barely feel like I can touch them because of the condition they are in. I'm mortified.

I don't know what to do. I must do something. Please help me think of something! I posted this ad on Craigstlist: http://hartford.craigslist.org/pet/1081476419.html but I honestly do not know if it will work. I canonly afford about two hundred dollars a month at the MOST. PLUS, the dogs are in no way trained any more. IM SO SCARED. The last thing in the world I wan to do is find a new home for them, but I really do love them with all my heart and right now they are being abused, and if I love them, I will do what is best for THEM. even if that means letting them go :'( :'( :'(, I'm so so so hurt by how my father and sister have been treating them. I cannot believe it. I thought I has found a good situation for them while I worked. I never would have guessed that this would have happened. Guinevere and D'Artagnon have never been separated from one another. I'm scared that If I try to re-home them, they will be split up. I'm scared they will be adopted and then returned by some impatient [person who expects three year old dogs to be housebroken and well trained. I am so so so sad. I cant stand by and let that happen to them. Please, if anyone has ANY ideas, please let me know. At this point I would be willing to send them anywhere in the country if someone was able to offer them a good foster home. These dogs have litterally saved my life...adn now I have to rescue them again....I just dont know how I would live without them. :'( :'( :'( :'( :'(

Right now my health is so precarious that I do not know what I can do. This is all just too much for me.