eating disorders

[underSARAH]

See, i get like that sometimes cakes. Its weird. i'm either i need food all the time or i dont want food at all ever.

[amymylove]

pk's on this thread we all feel ur pain... i start off eating a few white thins and can't stop shoving them in my mouth i hope ur ok so u just binge?

[amymylove]

i ended up b/p after being good for almost 2 whole days i b/p once today around 7pm... my feet have stopped swelling so i am happy about that i am happy with myself for not b/p more than 1 time a day that is good for me hopefully i can not do it at all tomorrow.... i am trying to fill my house with lots of fruits veggies, and beans... all stuff i have to cook so i won't be as tempted to binge on snacks... it sucks so many girls have these problems... something is very wrong with our society to make us all obsess so much about food and our appearance

[faylinameir]

i ended up b/p after being good for almost 2 whole days i b/p once today around 7pm... my feet have stopped swelling so i am happy about that i am happy with myself for not b/p more than 1 time a day that is good for me hopefully i can not do it at all tomorrow.... i am trying to fill my house with lots of fruits veggies, and beans... all stuff i have to cook so i won't be as tempted to binge on snacks... it sucks so many girls have these problems... something is very wrong with our society to make us all obsess so much about food and our appearance

I agree totally Amy, theres A LOT wrong with our society. *hugs* tomorrow will be better dear. I believe in you!

I personally haven't oinked out on food for a week now. Like you, I'm not keeping anything premade in the house, except like some hummus, but thats too fatty for me to pig out on. And I lost 2lbs so yay!!

[amymylove]

awesome fay... i think it really helps not to have so many trigger foods and shit if u pig out on fruits and veggies oh well... it's good for u... i'm sure if u keep ur house stocked with healthy vegan foods ur bound to lose weight seriously keep it up!

[Narcissus]

awesome fay... i think it really helps not to have so many trigger foods and shit if u pig out on fruits and veggies oh well... it's good for u... i'm sure if u keep ur house stocked with healthy vegan foods ur bound to lose weight seriously keep it up!

Oh yeah, I hear you on the trigger foods. I'm gluten-intolerant, but not to the point where a little tiny bit of soy sauce will make me die... but if I know I've eaten it, all hell breaks loose. And bread is always the 'binge on meeee, you know you waaaant meeee' food. I have to leave the dorm kitchens when people start making toast. XP

[faylinameir]

awesome fay... i think it really helps not to have so many trigger foods and shit if u pig out on fruits and veggies oh well... it's good for u... i'm sure if u keep ur house stocked with healthy vegan foods ur bound to lose weight seriously keep it up!

Oh yeah, I hear you on the trigger foods. I'm gluten-intolerant, but not to the point where a little tiny bit of soy sauce will make me die... but if I know I've eaten it, all hell breaks loose. And bread is always the 'binge on meeee, you know you waaaant meeee' food. I have to leave the dorm kitchens when people start making toast. XP

!!!! im sorry but lol thats so funny, I  toast 

[ponycakes!]

pk's on this thread we all feel ur pain... i start off eating a few white thins and can't stop shoving them in my mouth i hope ur ok so u just binge?

I'm ok. I used to be way worse with food. Like not eat all day, then hardcore binge in the evening and cry. I've stopped with the restricting food part (though last year I got into one of those calorie tracking sites for like a month and would try to see how negative I could get my calories with exercise and not a lot of food), but I can't stop with the eating tons of food and thinking about it all the time. At least being vegan means that sometimes the food is less bad for me..or something. The worst part is when I feel all crazy when I eat. Sigh. 

[veganhippie]

pk's on this thread we all feel ur pain... i start off eating a few white thins and can't stop shoving them in my mouth i hope ur ok so u just binge?

I'm ok. I used to be way worse with food. Like not eat all day, then hardcore binge in the evening and cry. I've stopped with the restricting food part (though last year I got into one of those calorie tracking sites for like a month and would try to see how negative I could get my calories with exercise and not a lot of food), but I can't stop with the eating tons of food and thinking about it all the time. At least being vegan means that sometimes the food is less bad for me..or something. The worst part is when I feel all crazy when I eat. Sigh. 

this!! it's like you can't control what your hands are grabbing and shoving into your mouth. i feel like a monster when i do it. i actually feel like godzilla and the food is the innocent people. :/ but i havent done that once since i got here. :]

[Vexierspiegel]

The worst part is when I feel all crazy when I eat. Sigh.

I know this feeling... I used to binge so bad, and I would eat so much and so fast that I stopped tasting the food, so I didn't know why I was binging anyway, and it made me feel like something was very, very wrong with me... which made me feel worse... which made me binge more. It's a terrible cycle, and it's really hard to break. I haven't really binged for about 2 years now... and if I can do it, anyone can do it! But it's hard. It's really hard. So worth it, though.

*hugs* Let me know if I can do anything to help.

xoxo,
Nicole

[amymylove]

all i can say is keep the snack food away (hey it rhymes) that is what constantly triggers me... snacks... chips, crackers, nuts, whatever... seriously why can't we just stop? i dunno ur all beautiful and i want us to all get over this shit i will let everyone know how my blood work comes back to see what years if abusing myself has done to me

[Vexierspiegel]

Amymylove: *hug*!

[veganhippie]

Amymylove: *hug*!

i second this. :] <3!

[amymylove]

thank u luvies 

[Capture]

Hugs to everyone! ED's are so hard and *oi* the triggers!!! I was doing really, really good with all my food issues for awhile...but then I just went into binge mode for the last three months. I am trying so hard not to fall back into that "I hate myself" phase over it--but damn...food is such a touchy thing with me. I have not b/p in a long time, but I noticed I have been restricting like crazy lately and saying no to any food offered to me--even if it is like carrots! *sigh*

Like everyone else said--it really does suck that we feel this pressure to be physically perfect--the demands are overwhelming, I wish I could be normal, eat normal, think normal about food...but alas...that line of thinking eludes me. I am just so thankful to know that I am not alone in this--that there are others that understand, but that also makes me sad to know that others are going through this too because it SUCKS!!



I am thinking of each one of you tonight and sending out wisps of good, healing energy your way. My door is always open to anyone who needs some support...not that I am the most stable post out there...but I at least understand.

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