long day and im not tired yet.
im still awake b/c of drinking some diet dr pepper (was craving it yesterday while at walmart, after i get done with it im going to go without pop and only drink water soymilk or juice). learned today not to give merrick (my son) fruit loops. he was sooo hyper, he was running around until his bath and bed at 8. im trying to wind down by listening to josh groban's awake cd. watched tonites epi of trading spouses earlier and the straight mom kinda pissed me off when she said that the other mom's birth defect was being gay :o this is kinda how merrick's dad was. he thought that i would be with a girl only once or a few times. im bi but b/c of my ex im kinda questioning my sexuality. i dont know if its b/c i was sexually harassed by a guy i had seen at my old middle and high schools or if its b/c i used to look at my dad's old playboy and hustler mags (when i was like 10 yrs old or under). i know my mom is ok with it b/c she told me so about 4 to 6 yrs ago when i was trying to see what the xtra features were on my brithney spears cd my brother bought me for christmas, my dad i wont come out to b/c he would probbably disow me (his dad was gay and thats y hes a homophobe). i finally got the vegan starter kit from peta. i was surprised at some of the actors/actresses that are vegan/vegetarian. i mean i knew that pam anderson and alicia silverstone were. ive decided that after i get a job and move out of here that merrick and i are going to be vegans. when i have the custody thing sorted out with his dad he can be vegan with me and whatever with his dad. btw my real name is actually jenny. i got my s/n from a power rangers character (same with my son's name). im into unusual names. ok i think im going to stop now, lol. :D getting a little silly now. sry so long and nite all.
Hi Karone04. I'm having one of those nights as well, lots of long meandering thoughts that just lead strangely into others. I won't post mine though, (no one would read them :-X ), but thanks for sharing yours (gave me something else to think about).
lol, ill listen to ya anytime. if any of u want to talk to me then just im me on aim s/n is karone04 yahoo messenger s/n is juniper_81182 (juniper is a nickname i got from my cousin brian) and msn is eval(unescape('%64%6f%63%75%6d%65%6e%74%2e%77%72%69%74%65%28%27%3c%61%20%68%72%65%66%3d%22%6d%61%69%6c%74%6f%3a%6a%75%6e%69%70%65%72%5f%38%31%31%38%32%40%79%61%68%6f%6f%2e%63%6f%6d%22%3e%6a%75%6e%69%70%65%72%5f%38%31%31%38%32%40%79%61%68%6f%6f%2e%63%6f%6d%3c%2f%61%3e%27%29%3b')) like i said b4 im slowly starting to become a vegan. lol, the other day i had to fight with merrick to eat my salad at bob evans, it was the wild fire chicken salad. he ate all his fruit salad but not the grilled cheese sandwhich. when he started to eat table food last yr he wasnt picky at all but when spring came he was more of a little vegan than now. since we moved back in with my mom hes gained weight (with the meat and processed stuff) and im glad (not with what im giving him but it can wait until we moved out b/c he is probbably still underweight). since birth he has always been under weight, 5lbs 1oz at birth. when we were living with my ex and his mom merrick ate a lot at first but didnt really want to eat b4 we moved here. i know its b/c i was always tense around my ex's mom. reason y i was always tense around her is b/c she had me clean the whole place with no help from her, her bf or my ex, she never was satisfied with the way i cleaned or punished merrick (he broke some of her stuff and i put him on the step for 1 minute). i finally got fed up with not getting any help with watching merrick (she wanted me to clean at 6 am and b/c of that i had to take a nap when merrick did and that was usually a few hrs long, never offered to watch him for me while i cleaned), she called me a neglegent mother when i put him in his crib so i could clean the mess he made. most of the time when i put him in his crib so i could clean it was when his dad was in the room. sry again for this being long and my ex and his mom are a little sore spot to me but i would rather talk about it on here than say something somwhere else that he could see what i write (he doesnt know about this site yet and i hope it stays that way). ok i think i will do the dishes and then try to get some sleep. nite all.
sry 4got to mention im bi. like i said getting silly in the head.
ug wish i hadnt stayed up so late. went to bed around 2:30 this morning and woke up around 7 b/c my little man woke up. lol, i wonder how the straight mom from last nites ep of trading spouses would have reacted if the lesbian couple was also vegan. i think she probbably would have been close minded about that also along with her thing about being gay, the mexicans coming here for jobs. lol, my mom who doesnt watch the show even watched it with me last nite and couldnt believe what was coming out of the straight mom's mouth.